Stain

I'm walking backwards
But I'm not counting my steps -
This time, the numbers are in your hands.

I'm walking backwards,
Away from you, but the further I go,
The closer I get to home.

You held my breath and my hand,
But I can't tell if you still want to hold my heart.

And yes, my ears may be bleeding,
But they bleed the truth.

And though I've said all I wanted was to see you smile,
All I really wanted was you.

You've stained these brown eyes blue,
They're traced with shades of you.
I am nothing more than to see
You throwing your pebbles behind me.

Unfinished thoughts are all I have left from us
And an incomplete thought is all that we ever were.

We are nothing more now than a dream
You forgot to have.

And though I've tried to pry myself away from this imaginary fire,
All the warmth I've breathed was from you.

You've stained these brown eyes blue,
They're traced with shades of you.
I am nothing more than to see
You dropping your feathers in front of me.

You'll never know how much it hurts to have to pretend you're lying again.
We both know that I don't deserve to wake up to us dying again.

You've burned this sore heart blue,
Charred with thoughts of you.
I only ever lived to see
You holding me hand
And standing beside me.